Although I might sound like a pessimist, it's rather that I'm a realist. I know about all the horrid stuff that goes on in the world. However, I focus on the better parts of life. The truth that a sun will be right around the corner. I'm always smiling and singing, and find it distressing and confusing that others would choose to live in depression.
I was an optimist when I was younger, but some where along the way I lost it. I am a pessimist and have low self-esteem. I'm not proud of it, I try to be optimistic, but it's hard to see the point of looking on the bright side of things when all I'm going to disappoint myself anyways.